Dear 14 years old me .. (II)

After meeting my new colleagues and stuff, I’ve never actually felt good there. I was all small and awkward, didn’t actually make any friends so I focused on studying, assuming the geek/nerd position and having the other kids look at me with some sort of pity and, at the same time, anger/envy. Mixed feelings, even for 14 years old.

I didn’t actually get the chance to interact properly with the other kids, mainly because well it’s hard to be surrounded by stupid people – that’s when I started learning it, I’m continuously doing so. Furthermore, it’s hard to be leader for stupid people (I like this saying).

And then there were the big boobs. Ofc they weren’t really big but for the boyish type of girl that I was – they were huge. And the whole hysteria with kids discovering their sexuality started. It was awful. Who looks good in a mini-skirt, who doesn’t, whose legs are more beautiful, who shaves better, who has the prettiest bum etc. As I didn’t have any of those, I, once again, chose to be smart over pretty. Cuz you can’t have it all – I’ve heard.

So that was school for me. That’s why it sucked. Bullying, socially awkward, not liking my colleagues and so on. It wasn’t fun. I talk to people now and they say ‘oooh dw about it, that’s how school was for all of us, we were kids, we knew nothing, just look back and smile because it was a nice period and it’s fun to remember it’. No, for me it isn’t. I don’t hate – people or things, but school came very very close to that.

After that, I went to high school. Because I was a smartass I managed to get into the one that I wanted – and I was one of the few people who did that (see, there’s a reason for the whole “my colleagues were stupid” burden).

And as it turned out, high school rocked. Ofc, not for the 1^st year. Because I don’t like beginnings. And I’m no good with them. But after that, trust me, it was awesome.

I guess there’s few lessons we should learn from these stories (I learned mine a while ago though):

- don’t mess with stupid people. As a wise man once said, they will drag you down to their level and beat you with their experience. Tru dat.

- do everything you can to look pretty. Yes, inside is important and yes, it’s good to be smart but pretty always helps.

- be pro at something. Just do it.

- (especially) when surounded by stupid people, try to dominate them. It won’t be hard. No jokes, no friends, just domination. Anger domination :D

- and, ofc, if you see a a hot girl with big boobs, remember this: she’s stupid. If she gets good grades or awards or whatevs she’s a whore cuz she can’t be that good. Stereotypes help, try them!

So, dear 14 years old me, I'm glad you now know these things.