You know how they say "You never know what you have until you lose it". I used to think it was such a stupid quote. Not to mention it was such a popular one that it actually turned into a life philosophy for many people. I pity the fools.. (me and Mr. T. would've said back then). However, I reached a certain point in my life where I couldn't agree more. Let me explain how it works: at first you're extremely happy and grateful for what you have. Then, as time passes by (oh time... that necessary evil!), you sort of get used to it. It becomes such a big part of your life that you take it for granted. You might even neglect it for a while or, even worse, mock it, without realizing it won't be there forever. 'Cause obviously, why would you lose something that's an integrated part of your life, that you became so fond of, that blends so well with you that you forget it's actually there? And then it happens. You do something stupid, something you know you wouldn't normally agree with; something you know you'll regret. You do it, just like in those Nike commercials. And then you get a huge ass slap from reality and you realize what you've done. And how there's nothing, absolutely nothing you could do to UN-do it. How do you deal with a situation like that?
This goes for pretty much anything in your life that you value.. whether it's your health, your fiancée, your car, your parents, your Prada bag and the list goes on and on.
Regret is the worst feeling that one could experience. It is not pain, pain you can bear with. It's even worse than when you suffer - time heals anything. But it doesn't make those regrets go away. No matter how hard you try, no matter how long you wait.
-L
